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mikeyy <333 [04 May 2006|10:23pm]

I FUCKING LOVE MIKEY.
ID BANG HIM IN A HEARTBEAT!
<333333333333333333

GEEZE. YOU ALL WOULD TOO
BUT ID KICK ALL YOUR ASSES IF YOU DID
:)

bye bye.

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[30 Apr 2006|08:11pm]

[ mood | bored ]

heyy ok i havent written here in a long time. so ill update you all on my life. well i met a new guy. his name's ilia. we went out for a while and then broke up cause his ex gf, rachel (fucking WHORE), went all suicidal blah fucking blah. soo we've been not going out since then (that was about two months ago.. maybe?) but we still like each other... i still like him & i think he likes me. i dunno things have been reallly different though. like honestly, i dont even remember the last time he said i love you. and he used to say it all the times. things are really fucked. and im fucked too. because i kinda like his best friend.. mikey. yeahh i talk about him alot. i never stopped liking him. and i still do. so its messsed. i dunno what to do! but yeah im just reallly confused about ilia. it really sucks cause he's such a nice guy and i really like him. and also him & rachel go to the same school and i dont go to their school and if she likes him still, what do you think she's gonna do if theyre at school and im not there. ughhhh it makes me mad just thinking about it. shes such a little fucking slut. ahhhhhhhhhh. okay well im really bored. and i think im just gonna go. ill talk to you all later. ps. im on a diet cause ive become a fatty. love you all. xoxox

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whoa [05 Nov 2005|05:05pm]

wow
i havent written in here
for sooo long
well
whats new with me?
i hate mikey
cuz he's an ass
i hate eric
cuz he's an ass
yep
thats new
...
uhh adam and julian think that me and leslie are going out haha. i have a dance coming up and i invited her and we're gonna pretend like we're going out to see what they think. julian's expecting us to like fuck on the dance floor. haha
whatever i gotta pee
like a fucking racehorse
im gonna go
xox
♥

ps.. add me if u have myspace.. www.myspace.com/xbleedingxxmascarax

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[04 Jun 2005|12:07pm]

hey
for some reason i feel reallly sick today. i dunno why
anyways i have a wedding to go to tonight. i bought a new dress for it and i just got a haircut :)
omfg i hate my msn. it signs off all the time by itself. whatever ok im gonna go bye i lovvve you all
XOXOOXOXOX

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[27 May 2005|06:55pm]

hey
i had an ok day. so many fucking prudes at me school though. it sucks
and eric fucking pisses me off soo much. he tries to act all gangster but he's NOT! like he's the most ungangster (if thats even a word) type of guy. he has blue eyes and reallllllllly blonde hair (like naturally bleach blonde) and the other people in his family are not like that at all. he's such a fucking loser.
yeah soo i learnt how to play tennis today. its hard. i cant wait till tomorrow. im going to my family/friend's house. stephs gonna be there and her family and my family and their family. we usually stay at each others houses until like 3 in the morning. but my dadalways fucking ruins the night by like wanting to go home atliek 11... yeah so i wanan get my nails done too. i have to go. bye xoxo

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read this.its true.im gonna try it [25 May 2005|09:35pm]

.mandie wrote this.im really gonna try to do this but it will be hard cuz i really love someone but he doesnt even notice me...

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ive been thinking hardcore ever since what happened today.
i realized, that im fucking sick of boyfriends and liking people.
they cause so many problems and someone always gets hurt.
like fuck
im sick of hurting people, and im sick of getting hurt.
its to much stress and theres always somethting that isnt working quite right.
i just wanna be friends with guys and not end up liking them.
thats hard but im gunna fucking try it.
cuz honestly.
going out with people just isnt working for me.
im gunna fuck off with that for a while.
it just causes problems in so many ways.
and besides. im in fucking high school these are the best years ever and i dont wanna be tied down to someone the whole time.
like its nice knowing you have someone all the time. and i love the moments you have
i love first everythings.
but its just not working for me because i suck at relationships.

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all of that is so true.
you waste your time thinking about guys and all they do is fucking hurt you.
the other day, i was thinking about when i was young. it was so great because i didnt have to worry about guys or about love and you could just live and have a happy life. i hate it now.

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<3 please comment.:.i need to hear from people that care about me <3 [25 May 2005|09:28pm]

[ mood | depressed ]

HEY

if you care about me, comment, and tell me why.
Then, post this in your journal and see who cares about you.

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[25 May 2005|09:17pm]

[ mood | exhausted ]

[ music | dayglo abbortions ]

hey
i tried to skateboard today. but i have learnt my lesson that i SUCK. i bought a really expensive board that was like $140 (i was expecting it to be like $50) and now i feel like smashing it. my brother has no sense on how you actually skateboard and he was trying to teach me. and im fucking retarted so i listen to him... and what does that get me? a fucking bruise on my back. and a really sore ass and hurting muscles. thats greeat! ok im never listening to him again. i just wanted to stand on the board and my brother was like: no you have to put ur right foot on the ramp part of it... like right at the edge so ur foots about to fall off. ok thats true im guessing but he didnt like help me at all so i did uhh... a reallllly shitty ollie. and i fell on my ass. why does skateboarding have to be sooo hard! geeze.

ok well mikey is fucking sexy. and i wish i could marry him.

i just had to put that in cuz i always see him and i like am about to cry cuz i like him soo much. yeah soo i went shopping. i usually buy clothes that are realllly expensive but i didnt this time. i got a west 49 shirt (that are usually from about $25-$60) for................................ $ 9!!!!!!!!!!! wow. that was a good deal. and i bought a skirt for $20. which is good.. and a pair of jeans for $45 (that isnt that good lol) and another skirt for $10.
one of my new favorite stores is garage. it has the sexiest clothes and theyre cheap...ish. well theyre alot better than west 49 and boathouse. ill still shop there but ill also go to garage. anyways i have to go. im soo tired. i hope i do better at skateboarding tomorow.. i wont but i just wanna think that i will. ok bye xoxo

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[22 May 2005|01:47pm]

[ mood | cranky ]

[ music | none. i just watched thirteen ]

hey sorry i havent written in here for a longg time
anyways its MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!!!! i had a party on friday and omg it was reallly weird. like one guy cried because i dont like him... and one guy thats not really hot but cute said he liked me lol and this other guy gave me a fucking REALLLY expensive necklace. i felt really awkward lol but it was fun other than that. and my other friend laura was crying too cuz of something else. k why teh fuck does eveyrone cry at parties?? ur supposed to have fun not fucking like cry and have a bad time.. whatever i had a good time and i ate so much that i was about to peuk in the middle of the night :( and then i had major cramps and the night wasnt so good. and i chipped the necklace that the guy gave me... i sleep reallly bad but dont worry,. he wont notice the chip. anyways ih ave to go get ready. my whole family is coming over today..... the only good thing is that ill have more money to spend! ok bye xoxo

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[12 May 2005|04:39pm]

[ mood | depressed ]

i love mikey
GOD i fucking love him sooooooo much
i would do anything to be with him
<3 i wish he loved me back. but i dont think that'll ever happen

i sound desperate... but im not. i honestly love him with all my heart
<3<3<3

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[07 May 2005|02:58pm]

[ mood | annoyed ]

[ music | mr lonely ]

omg. the oc WASNT an old episode! im soo pissed. i heard that it was a realllly good show.
now everyones pissed at me cuz i brought my boyfriend to the trinity fair. wtf i hate everyone.

bye <3

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[05 May 2005|04:23pm]

[ mood | nervous ]

[ music | nothing.. last song was franco un-american- NOFX ]

hey..

im sooo nervous! tomorrow is the trinity fair!!!! omg i cant wait!! im soo anxious too. ok well ill write later. cuz i have to change. and im soo pissed too. the oc isnt on tonight!! its like an old episode! that sucks ok bye <3

-xoxo-

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[02 May 2005|08:02pm]

hey

well, jonathan keptt bugging me today. he was like: pleeease can you forgive me? and iw as like NO! YOU EMBARESSED ME IN FRONT OF ALL MY FRIENDS AND I HATE YOU! DONT TALK TO ME. and he keeps pissing me off. overall, i had an ok day.

bye- CANT WAIT TILL FRIDAY with jake :) and trinity fair :D:D:D:

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[30 Apr 2005|12:43pm]

[ mood | sick ]

[ music | thank you for the venom- my chemical romance ]

hey

wel im really sick today. my nose is like stuffed up and my throat hurts. and i have to do work all day :(

anyways guess what i just remembered? this friday is the trinity fair (a little fair that my school has every year) so i dunno what im supposed to do about me and eric and jake... hmmm? well ill talk to eric on monday. anyways im gonna go i have soo much stuff to do. bye xoxo

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[29 Apr 2005|04:01pm]

[ mood | moody ]

[ music | piano music. someones playing the piano in my house... ]

hey
i had an average day. some REALLY good, some good and some bad

k the REALLY good first- eric came up to me and talked to me and he's pretty cool lol and we made plans to get together on friday (not today but in a week) with jake, his friend, and another girl. so that was good

and the bad is that fucking jonathan dumped me. hahah wtf? im in teh fucking "popluar" crowd. he should be THANKING me that i went out with him. seriosuly i only went out with him to be nice. k saying that im popular makes me sound like im a HUGEE bitch and im snobby. but im not. im just saying that cuz i like am nice and i went out with a hugge loser. anyways i relaly dont care that much, cuz he's not hot, or special or anything. and i never liked him in the first place. ... im sorta glad its over so that i dont have to deal with his retarted personality.

and the good is that all the girls and guys were being soo sympathetic for me. and all the girls were around me hugging me and everything. and all these people in a grade older than me went to him and were beating his ass. lol wow. i love everyone. by teh way, THANK YOU diane, liza, nicole and sheilagh for that. and thanks eric for trying to help me... haha

and im having a party on friday, may 20. my school ends at 1 pm on that day so me, laura, kristina and sierra are going to the movies. and then coming home by 7ish so we can have a real party. like im gonna invite a lot of people from 7-11 around there. k well ill write later. bye xoxox

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